Weekend / Wednesday Walk Up #2

This week's Weekend Walk-Up song comes from a dear friend of mine, Diana.  She sent me this song last week when my anxiety was at a peak.  The message came via a chat message, at a perfect time, when I was feeling very low, very tired, very defeated.

It's called "Still Waters (Psalms 23)" by Leanna Crawford.  It spoke directly to my heart because it talks about anxiety and how it hates the calming peaceful message of Psalms 23.  "Cause anxiety hates Psalm 23 So just say it to yourself 'til you believe it, and I'm feeling like I need it right now."


Treatment this week is going to go better.  It will go better because I'm believing it will go better, and maybe that's enough.  I know the importance of it. I know what it is trying to do in my body, even if it comes with some side effects that seem terrible at times.  We'll manage.  We'll deal with symptoms if it means killing cancer cells in my body.  It's necessary.  And it's going to heal me.

If you will, please keep me in your prayers today and in the next week as we see if my body will tolerate this medication better.  I will get through this obstacle and bravely face the next.  

This is day 52.


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Anonymous said…
Lifting you up in prayer today Jenna. Thinking of you often.
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