Let Them Eat Cake.


Today I baked a cake and decorated it with marshmallow fondant.

It's the first time I tried decorating a cake with fondant.

It wasn't easy.

In fact, A lot of things aren't easy right now.  The physical challenge of being on my feet in the kitchen.  The reaching for ingredients and cooking supplies from the cupboards and shelves.  Rolling the fondant out on the countertop.  

But it was worth it.

It was worth it because Kennedy has wanted a cake with fondant icing since her 10th birthday.

It was worth it because I love the challenge of learning new things.

It was worth it because all the new things in my life lately have been fraught with fear and trepidation, and this was a new thing that was creative, fun and challenging.

It was worth it because I spent 2 hours concentrating on non-medical activities.  

The "finished" cake is far from finished in any cake decorator's opinion. It has no fancy characters, flowers, words, or decorations.   There's no fruit filling or crumbly cookie middle.   No ganache, no glaze, and no chocolatey drizzle.




But I'm learning.  I learned (a little bit) about making marshmallow fondant.  (I included the link in case you want to learn too).  I learned about being patient with the fondant. I learned about being patient with myself.

And I learned that finishing something to perfection isn't always necessary. Or possible. I'll never be finished to perfection.  But there's always room to keep learning and keep growing.

Today was my last steroid day before my treatments start, so this was the best chance I would have a well-managed pain day.  We took advantage of this by going out to dinner for the first time since my diagnosis.  Texas Roadhouse served up some delicious food and a good "yee-haw" for Kennedy and Jason's birthday dinners, and that was a good way to finish our week.  

Tomorrow I will spend the day hydrating so my veins are nice and beefy and there will (hopefully) not be any issues starting an IV on Monday.  Tomorrow I will spend the day making a list of things to pack for treatment days. Tomorrow I will get myself and my things in order before we roadtrip to Cleveland for the day, and figure out what Mondays are going to look like for the next few months.

But tonight....tonight we eat perfectly imperfect cake.

This is day 20.  
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Diana Hannay said…
For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12:10). This was our gospel this weekend and as I prayed, I thought of you. I see Gods strength shining through your weakness!!❤️
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